Oh my gosh! I cannot believe that it has been over 6 months since my last post. Well to be honest am not even a proper blogger yet, but meh; what the hell. Anyways, an update on my amazing life.
Recently I have decided to give up on boys. Boys suck. They suck a lot. They make you feel like crap and just keep doing their thing. That's not fair.
I will explain why I feel this way. It has been nearly 2 years since the last time I was in a proper relationship, and in "love". As much as I'd hate to admit it, I am still head over heal for that boy. It's unbelievable how much shit that just one boy can cause to your life. I still talk to him, recently - well a month ago - I called him to just speak and we started speaking about old times, and I must have said how much I miss him etc. and he said "you need to grow up and get over it, its been 2 years since we've been together". I dont know what to say?! Is he being serious?
How can I just "get over" the boy who gives me butterflies every time I see him, or even speak to him. But what the fuck. If he doesnt want to be with me, then fuck him. Right? I tired, now if he doesn't respond then it's not my fault right? Well I have nothing that I regret not doing. I genuinely think that he's over me, and its just me making a big deal out of nothing. Can you even fall out of love? is that possible?
Well screw that.
I seem to be having bigger problems in life at the moment, things like SCHOOL, and EXAMS! I dont think am taking my future serious enough. I mean don't get me wrong, I DO do my work, but i can't focus at all. I seem to have an attention span of a 3 year old. And that'f getting me absolutely no where in terms of my revision. I need some sot of motivation to keep on going. I don't know how to keep going. SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME.
But other than that, I L O V E my new school, i absolutely adore everyone there, its like a little family and I thank my best friend everyday for introducing me there, I don't think I've explained where I am currently studying at. I will do that as soon a blog on my school, and how amazing it is.
I think am done for the say actually, its 1am here in LONDON.
ASTA LA VISTA,
xox
